God is SO great....

my God is so big..
so strong and so mighty..
there's nothing that he cannot do..

that's one of the songs i used to sing in sunday school...that's all i remember..but the 3 short lines explain everything..

prom night's unbelievably over...and God has really blessed me so so much today..let me tell you how GREAT my GOD is...

supposingly, i have class today (friday) from 9am to 5.30pm..and prom night starts at 6.45..how in the world can i get ready in time?? so my friends asked the lecturer for a change of time for the class from 4.30pm to 5.30pm but failed cause majority in the class were not going..so i was all ready to rush like a cartoon today until, my lecturer came in and told us that college will be closed at 5pm today which means the last hour will be cancelled!!

i don't really remember praying for early dismissal...yet, he answered what my heart desired..
and it was raining kittens and puppies on my way back home and so i prayed for the rain to stop and it did..though it was still drizzling a little..i know He answered my prayers...

and at the ballroom..we were assigned to tables last week..some of my friends were somehow separated and couldn't sit together..and guess what? (bla bla bla....) then we could sit together..yes, everyone..this i didn't pray about too, yet God answered my heart desired..

it's like a tripple blessing today( or more )..prom night was fun...successful, all looked so gorgeous and charming..pictures?? lol...i may post it up..let me sort them out first when i have the time to do so..till then!

p/s. He hears me even when i don't speak...

specially dedicated to irene....

Leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember! Don't send a message, leave a comment in HERE. Next, re-post this in your notes and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses.

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had any feelings about me good/bad?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
15. What is my best attribute?

here it is...

1. do you need to ask??lol..
2. nope..we're not friends but we're super close friends and sisters in Christ..
3. i don't remember exactly when and where..we were in the same primary school but i'm not sure if i first met you in sunday school or school and i only got to know you in standard six when we became classmates...
4. to be honest, i had a bad impression about you when i first met you (don't know why..immatured mind maybe?)..but you definitely proved me wrong!! =)
5. have i given you any before?i doubt so but i've ehard some calling you popcorn..queen?? haha..what other names do you want? i can give it to you =)
6. this is tough..cause that's just so many words to describe you..super-encouraging..
7. oops....i didn't know this question exists so i mentioned it in no.4
8. mentioned in no.4 too..lol..definitely, no!
9. what ah?err...cow? olive oil tuna? jack daniels chocolates? hehe...
10. the first word to cross my head was somehow, love..haha..what you want la? yellow roses??hehe
11. i consider...very well? hehe..think i got to know you even better after we left school and that's truly a blessing..
12. last saturday..hehe..had a fun time with yopu..thanks for everything!
13. hmm...sort of..but don't ask me what coz i won't tell..or i've forgotten maybe =p
14. nope..but i hope you'll do 1 about me ? hehe..
15. attribute??wow..sharing almost about everything and encouraging me so much in everything..

guess that's about it.. enough of nice things about you?facebook is lagging too much for me to type there so i post it here..really wanna write bad stuffs about you but well, you're way tooooooo good !!! thanks for everything !!

when miss L got lectured by mr L....

as i was walking into the library this afternoon after lunch with my friend to kill some time before cf (cause there was nowhere else to go)..i saw mr L sitting at the far end corner..not that far but quite far..as we were looking for a good spot to sit, mrL saw us and called us there...he looked down ( i dunno why..too shy to see me??haha..just kidding ) and pointed at me...

here's the so called "conversation" or i call it, lecture outside lecture hours..

mr L : the test that day...why so poor?? especially the *so and so* part...u only did well in 1 question out of 4...why??

me : errr...i forgot already.. ( in my mind thinking, sure la, i didn't really study also..just flipped through only..good enough that i have 1 question right )

mr L: when you sitting for exam??

me : june...

mr L : you better practise more and do more revision..this part will definitely come out in the exam..if it's not this then that.. ( i think he said this 2 or 3 times )..you are very weak in this part..so and so has done very well..( i'm not so concerned bout that..why compare?)

me : *speechless*..*just nod and nod as a sign of okay, i will..* (and trying hard not to laugh )

mr L : okay, u may go..

me : thank you, sir =)

so that's about it..i don't remember it being so short..i must have forgotten some parts...and indeed, he nags a lot..shouldn't have took so long to get a seat..shouldn't have looked at him..but well, nevermind..in the end, my friend and i were wondering, was the lecture really meant for me?? did i really do that badly though i know i didn't do well...he doesn't even remember my name !! how does he know that's my paper??lol..

somehow i find it funny and at the same time scary cause i don't know how many more times he's gonna lecture me like that.. it's been a long time since a teacher or lecturer has spoken to me like that..or this could bet he first time cause i can't recall when the last time was...

this is getting draggy right??lol..so i shall stop here...till then!

p/s. i found this video of my previous dog, saffy from my old files and i totally forgotten about the existence of this video..and suddenly, i miss her even more..such cute, adorable and active dog yet....life is in His hands...

Astro Wah Lai Toi TVB Drama Awards 2008 [RESULTS]

there goes another year.. the tvb drama awards presentation ceremony just ended not long ago..it was held in Arena of Stars Genting Highlands this year broadcasted live on astro wah lai toi ( channel 311 ) from 7pm to 10.40pm..

the actors and actresses who came were :

Louise Lee Sze Kei, Suzanna Kwan Kuk Ying, Moses Chan Ho, Linda Chung Ka Yan, Tavia Yeung Yi, Bosco Wong Chung Chak, Raymond Lam Fung, Myolie Wu Hang Yi, Shirley Yeung Sze Kei, Joe Ma Tak Chung, Jessica Hester Hsuan, Ron Ng Cheuk Hei, Benz Hui Siu Hong and Law Koon Lan..
(i hope i didn't miss anyone out..)

and so the results are as follow : -

Top 12 Favourite Characters

1. Tong Chi Onn by Moses Chan Ho (Heart Of Greed)
2. Ho Mei Tin by Myolie Wu Hang Yi (To Grow With Love)
3. Chung Lap Man by Ron Ng Cheuk Hei (On The First Beat)
4. Sheung Joy Sum by Linda Chung Ka Yan (Heart Of Greed)
5. Chai Foon Cheung by Bobby Au Yong Chan Wah (Dicey Business)
6. Lee Ching Wan by Jessica Hester Hsuan (Dicey Business)
7. Lui Tou by Bosco Wong Chung Chak (Price Of Greed)
8. Ling Hao by Louise Lee Sze Kei (Heart Of Greed)
9. Wah Chan Pong by Raymond Lam Fung (Drive Of Life)
10. Wing Sau Fung by Charmaine Sheh (Drive Of Life)
11. Tai Lap Yan by Joe Ma Tak Chung (Maiden's Vow)
12. Tham Chu Mei by Tavia Yeung Yi (Dicey Business)

Most Unforgetable Moment

Heart Of Greed

Favourite On Screen Kiss

Raymond Lam Fung and Charmaine Sheh (Drive Of Life)

Favourite Bizarre Character

Ho Mei Tin by Myolie Wu Hang Yi (To Grow With Love)

Favourite Villain

Sung Ka Yee by Shirley Yeung Sze Kei (The Brink Of Law)

Favourite Screen Stealer

Chow Fook Wing by Benz Hui Siu Hong (Dicey Business)

Favourite Couple

Linda Chung Ka Yan and Raymond Lam Fung (Heart Of Greed)

Favourite Theme Song

"Gong Pat Chu Seng" by Suzanna Kwan Kuk Ying (Heart Of Greed)

and the 3 big awards....

Favourite Lead Actress

Louise Lee Sze Kei as Ling Hao in Heart Of Greed

Favourite Lead Actor

Moses Chan Ho as Tong Chi Onn in Heart Of Greed

Favourite Drama

Heart Of Greed

i really love this year's awards presentation ceremony...it was just so awesome!! the performances were all so nice especially when the theme songs were sung...and i find it nice also because i've watched all of the dramas listed above!! shows how much more tv addict i've become..more dramas to catch up with this year..

it's obvious that Heart of Greed grabbed most of the awards, infact all the 3 big ones..i'm sure it will be moonlight resonance's turn next year and i wanna watch it as soon as i can cause most people i know, even those who least watch tvb dramas have watched it..! how can i be outdated??hehe..so,

till then!!

p/s. sorry for all the spelling errors if i've made any..could it be typing errors or i don't know how to spell, my apologies =)

result fever...

oh no...! results for the december 2008 exams were out this afternoon..!! i sat for one paper if you remember reading it on my blog..a really tough 1 and i don't know how to face it...went to college this afternoon for cf meeting and met my friends so joined them for lunch..half of people at the table or more had no appetite to eat anything cause they were too worried...

after lunch, everyone went back to the library to check the results online..the atmosphere was..gosh! i don't like it..it puts me into fear even more..but it was so glad to hear the cheers, screams, laughters and to see the relieved faces and people jumping for joy...at one moment, i wished i was them..they're people from the earlier intakes so they passed all the papers already..

how bout me? guess what?i had no courage at all to see my results..i rather not see it and keep hoping..at least there's still hope..this is the first time i'm online for today which means i've not checked it yet...

i really feel guilty for not having enough faith..for worrying..for being scared..for not having the courage to face the truth... i guess i'm one of the few who have not checked my result..i would rather someone just chuck me the result and force me to accept it..

when i opened my inbox just now..i saw the mail...i shall go open it now..or a while later and continue this post with the outcome...

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phew! i passed...the moment i opened it, it was a silent " yay! i passed!! " probably cause it was already 12am..publishing my result here is so not me but i'm just too happy and relieved...if you think 53 marks is low, i wanna tell you that i'm so so so happy and proud of it cause i know i didn't do well in that paper..i myself couldn't find 40 marks in the paper..what more the examiner? the papers were all sent to uk to be marked and i was really scared they wouldn't understand what i wrote..

it is definitely by God's grace that i can pass..God must have blessed me with a super duper kind and lenient examiner cause that's what i prayed for after the exam..words can't express how thankful i am..i really don't deserve 53 marks...all i wanted was to pass.. God is a great God... i feel even more guilty for not trusting Him fully...i kept reminding myself to have faith in Him and i will pass...but i kept thinking, what if i really fail...what if this and what if that...i have faith in Him but i didn't have faith in myself..

God has really blessed me abundantly throughout my exams in college for the past few months and i believe he will continue to if only i put my trust in Him and surrender everything into His hands..

thanks to all my friends for giving me the moral support to check my results and for some who offered to help me check..lol..my cowardness sure annoyed you a lil..

guess this is long enough to bore you..till then!

ps/. i've got to have more faith!

i want to know You more.....

In the secret in the quiet place

In the stillness You are there

In the secret in the quiet hour

I wait only for You

'Cause i want to know You more

I want to know You

I want to hear Your voice

I want to know You more

I want to touch You

I want to see Your face

I want to know You more

I am reaching for the highest goal

That i might receive the prize

Pressing onward pushing every hindrance aside

Out of my way

'Cause i want to know You more

I want to know You

I want to hear Your voice

I want to know You more

I want to touch you

I want to see Your face

I want to know You more

In the secret ( i want to know you ) by Sonicflood :

In the secret ( i want to know you ) by Andy Park:



here's a short POST valentine POST..lol



had a great day in church yesterday..and i guess i'm sort of in a mission and am working on it and praying bout it ( incase you're wondering what my mission is, it's not what you think..haha)..

"to have a successful boy-girl-relationship, you must first have a successful relationship with God and he will give you what your heart desires...eg. a life partner your heart desires..never ever rush into relationships for God provides and you will find one whom God reveals to you when the times comes.."

that was partly what i remembered they said in church and yup, i totally agree with it!

it's so nice to celebrate valentine's day in church though valentine's day is of not much significance to me..who said valentine's day is only for couples?? and who said only people with partners receive valentine gifts?? i received lil meaningful gifts too..

heatshape chocolate from my lost shepherd and chocolate ball from a cute lil boy..(cause he was asked to give la..haha)..and "a bouquet of yellow roses" from irene but i forgot to get a picture of it...do you still have it, irene?? lol..it may look cheap but it's priceless (cannot be valued).. btw, the picture looks blur i think because the photographer was in love so couldn't snap properly..lol..

guess that's all for now...till then!

p/s. i have a windfall break this week but it's time to study and i hope i'll really study cause it's progress test week..no classes but test is on..it's still a break..hehe..

8 years ago...

seremban...it's been 8 years since i last set foot there..(it's in negeri sembilan incase you don't know =p ) a place i never liked going since young (as far as i can remember ).. a place which i never want to go again since what happened 8 years ago.. the place which i dreaded to go when my dad suddenly said, "come let's go visit grandma in seremban..." so fine..i went just for the sake of going..for the sake of showing my face..for the sake of pleasing her though i know she doesn't really like me..not that i mind anyway..

and when we arrived at my grandma's house..i was surprised to see her hair all white..i think i last saw her 3 or 4 years back when she came to visit us..she really looks like a granny now..somehow, i had a little fear upon arriving..i don't know why..fear she'll scold me for nothing? fear she'll accuse me like she did before..?i really don't know how to react if she does..


and i step into the house..eventually, nothing bad happened..not as bad as the last time i saw her..nothing much has changed as inside the house looked almost the same as before..everything semed so antique and nostalgic (both good and bad)..


and i saw these photographs hung on the wall and then recalled the existence of that family picture on the right..


know which is me? hehe..i used to look cute though *erhem*..hehe.. and i somehow kinda miss my grandpa when i saw the picture..it's been 8 years since he left and i can't remember when was the last time i saw him.. i remember him as a loving grandpa who buys us our favourite tid bits each time we visited him..

many years later...


taken in a studio don't know how many years later...


what do you see? not the horse but bae yong jun..lol..both my grandmothers love bae yong jun..i wonder why..maybe he has the aura which attracts more elderly women..

a cabinet full of antiques...she really doesn't throw things..

the same old kitchen with the same furnitures...

the living room..and yeah, that's her..all white..

a room which used to have a bed in it..now became a store room..

this used to be my grandpa's room..now a store room too..i really wondered if she ever throws anything...

closer view of her white hair...haha..

on the way to rasa jayah food court? if i'm not mistaken...

they had bak kut teh..i didn't..the weather was too terribly warm to eat this..

so i had this..

met up with my 2 and only direct cousins...my cousin brother looks so different now..i can hardly recognise him..the words he speaks are equally different compared to few years ago..and surely we met up with my aunt and uncle too.. the most awkward thing meeting up with my grandma and aunt is, they will stare at my siblings and me for a long time..eye balls roll left and right..quietly analyse what they think about how we look..gosh...i don't like that..

this trip or reunion? wasn't as bad as what i thought it would be.. was she sincerely treating me quite nice? well, i don't know..but it's ok..i'll just accept it..andshe asked when will i be going there again..i don't know..it's something unforeseen...

we did snap another family photograph...but, i'm not gonna post it here..hehe..

p/s. it's okay if u're not interested in this post..i blogged about it simply because it's nostalgic after haven't been there for 8 years..back to college tomorrow..sigh..lazy lazy lazy..hehe..

till then!

We Are The Reason...

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
But we never realised a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gifts of our lives

We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give ( all that He could give all )
To show us the reason to live

He is the reason to live
( don't you know do you know the reason that He came, oh He came to save us when He gave His life for us )
He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave everything
( everything that He had He gave)
To show us the reason to live





i've heard this song a few times but never really knew the lyrics till today when i saw someone posted the korean version on facebook and i realised how meaningful the lyrics are..this song is really touching and it tells of how much Jesus loves us..reading the comments of this song on youtube is inspiring too..

....

if only i can speak chinese more fluently....

i need to improve on my chinese..

and my deteriorating english..

as for malay....try to maintain it?? lol..

it's a public holiday for all perak-ians tomorrow!!err..i mean today.. hurray! but one thing bad about holiday, it's really hard to get started again...i had to really force myself to wake up and go for classes this morning and came back with a quite bad headache...

that's all for now..till then!

once in a lifetime...

before the clock strikes 12.. i hereby wish you a very

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY !!!

i know you'll read this so i need not state your name and leave everyone in suspense..hehe..no special e-cards, songs, or any dedication but this is from me..

like i said, you're another year further away from your baby court..another year wiser (supposingly..haha)..prettier for sure..and yeah, be more matured okay? act like a 21 yeah?but it's okay to be young at heart..haha..

thanks for everything !! i truly appreciate everything you've done for me..hope you had a great and memorable 21st birthday today!!

may God bless you abundantly in everything you do!

p/s. joke of the day : eunice thought beacon was food and this entertained the birthday girl so much when i asked her, "beacon not food meh?" and she burst into laughter.. yeah, i admit, my vocab is bad and is deteriorating ( even that word i had to check the dictionary..lol...)