Monday, March 23, 2009

disappointed...

i'm just so disappointed with myself..

so much to share yet nothing comes out..

i know it, yet nothing comes out..

and in the end, all i said is "i don't know"..but i should have known it..

something is wrong with me..it happens many times..

i gotta work on it..but how? i really have no guts...didn't even have the guts to ask the guard to help me to refill my tumbler and rather suffer from thirst for 2 hours..

i really need more of God's power in me..do i not feel hopeless enough to fully depend on Him?? am i still lack of faith??

4 comments:

sue♥ said...

hey just pray to Him to give you the courage to talk in public! He can perform miracle! :) really wan..cause i had this fear too, worst than you..and slowly He help me overcome it :D hehe hugs! love you my lost sheep sis!

Butterfly-dreams said...

hey = )
don;t be too hard on yourself. It happens to a lot of people. At least, you realize it and u wanna do something about it. Some people don't even bother. I used to be like that too. Keeping my thoughts to myself and sometimes brings more trouble. Don't be afraid to express yourself and you'll be amaze by its wonders. But of coz, with limitations la.

But don't afraid la, it'll probably take time... but you can = )

start with simple simple things..
don't fret. = )

Ask God for courage and boldness.
Be bold in everything that you do and do not be afraid. You have nothing to be lose also. Be daring. Be daring to accept the outcome of each situation. = D

all de best = )

pismayka said...

hey my dear dear dear friend, if you've got anything to share or just want some1 to listen, u can always call me. i'll be here for you.

i totally understand how you felt. 'cos i always feel that way too. here're some verses that i find encouraging when i feel like that.

yea what caryn said is true, don't be too hard on yourself.

:) in my eyes, you're very bold. & that day my mom baru puji you after you left. quoted exactly :
Mom : "Wah your friend eunice very bold ar, can drive around everywhere on her own."

hehe.

"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.." Romans 8:1

"In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express." Romans 8 : 26

"But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me." 2 Cor 12:9

"And what more shall I say? I do not have time to tell about Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel and the prophets, 33who through faith conquered kingdoms, administered justice, and gained what was promised; who shut the mouths of lions, 34quenched the fury of the flames, and escaped the edge of the sword; whose WEAKNESS WAS TURNED TO STRENGTH; and who became powerful in battle and routed foreign armies." Hebrews 11 : 34

"For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship." Romans 8 :15

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[m] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. " Romans 8:38

Let's put our faith in Him. And let's grow in boldness together.

It takes time. But let's not give up for God has not given up on us.

I love you friend.

:)

pismayka said...

I heard a pastor once preached that our faith can increase by reading His word and spending time with God. Daily devotion is necessary too.

:)