too many first times in a day...

it's finally over.. the day i dreaded.. the day which had been bothering me for almost the whole week.. the day which had been so burdening till i couldn't take it anymore but i held on.. and surely, God brought me through..

it wasn't so bad afterall.. led worship in youth for the FIRST time.. shared the message for the FIRST time which was really terrifying just thinking about it.. took over the guitar class for the FIRST time just for today..

wow... it's nothing great that i did all 3 in a day and i'm not trying to boast about what i did for it was all for God's glory.. worship leading is not easy.. it's my first time actually trying to synchronise with the band cause i usually just follow what the worship leader sings.. it's a totally different experience.. gotta really focus and know when to enter and u can't just stop singing whenever u feel like it.. sharing? haven't really spoken in front of a 'crowd' for 2 years already.. and i now know, don't type everything you planned to say onto the powerpoint.. guitar class? i'm not good enough to teach so it was just some basic stuffs the teacher taught me last year and indeed, not as easy as i thought it would be too.. takes more than just a desire to learn..

all in all... i'm still struggling to surrender everything to Him.. still trying to do things with my own strength most of the time.. i know it but i just can't.. i'm still trying.. i know it wasn't good enough because i still tend to hold back a lot...again, i gotta have more faith!

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

p/s. oh yes, i learned another new thing - kilae maele kilae kilae, kilae kilae.. haha