adventurous day in the 'coconut shell' cave..

26th december 2009 - another day filled with lots of fun, excitement and adventure.. 5 of us decided to go to gua tempurung.. none of us knew the way there so irene studied the google map really well and directed sue jane, who drove all of us there.. thank God we managed to reach our destination..

there were 4 kinds of tours to choose from.. we chose the third one which required a minimum of 8 people.. since there were only 5 of us, we had to wait for another 3 strangers to join the same tour.. after waiting for nearly 2 hours, still no one came for the same tour.. we asked God to bring us 3 more person..just 3 more, but no one came.. all went for either the 2nd or the 4th tour.. so we had 3 options - keep waiting, pay extra for 3 person or switch to 4th tour which required extra money too.. we finally decided to switch tour and at that very moment, more people came to buy tickets so we tried persuading them to go for the same tour but they refused to do so.. and the very next moment, a group of 4 came to buy the tickets for the 3rd tour.. needed no persuasion at all..

see how God works wonders?? just at the point when we wanted to pay extra to change tour, He brought us the right amount of people we needed.. it is definitely not a coincidence.. the group of people who refused to join us did join us in the end..not sure why though.. but that really really reminded me of how amazing God is and nothing is impossible with Him.. even when we gave up waiting, He didn't and will never give up on us..


this is...gua tempurung.. hehe.. nice mini cave..

the journey in the cave was great.. about 2 hours long but felt it was too short.. the river route was the best of all.. crawled under the stalactites..slid down a slope, went down through a hole.. and you know what? it's good to be short in height in this kinda activities..


the people in the background were pure candid..they just happened to walk pass and beautified our picture =)


ramli's burger for lunch..


clockwise from top - see no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil, smell no evil, touch no evil

can't wait to go again next time!! gonna go for the more extreme one next time!!

went to caryn's house for barbecue at night with church friends and it was definitely awesome.. it always feels great to be with them.. so at home and so belonged and it's been two years since we last had a barbecue like that..



guess that's all for now.. till then !!

p/s. this is one morning after so long which i am at home and finally, no plans for the day =) feels kinda weird and empty but it feels really good to just sit around at home..

p/s/s. oh yes, christmas was awesome too!! there goes december... too soon, too quick.. i still can't catch up with time and i've lost track of the days and dates now.. and i've got debts to be paid up.. HUGE hole in my pocket...

Where's The Line To See Jesus??

over and over and over and over again... i've been listening to this song.. the words are just so beautiful, and true..



santa brought us presents but Jesus Christ gave His life for you and me..He was borned for us..

Jesus is Christmas..

of tiredness and fun....

there goes another day of tiredness but fun at the same time.. went for my college's open day for the first time today and participated in the carwash project..6 of us washed more than 10 cars.. not bad but very few outsiders' cars though.. and when i was about to leave college, i got a shock of my life looking at my car filled with tiny leaves, branches, bird poop and anything else filthy.. and at that very point of time, i wished rain would just pour down heavily immediately to help me wash away those filthy stuffs.. yeah, it was silly of me to park under the tree.. i knew that would happen but i thought it wouldn't be that bad.. now i know and i'll never park there ever again.. i guess..

my right hand feels really numb, tired and strengthless now.. my holidays have been so far eventful.. so packed that i've no time to feel bored at all thus, i hope all those who are complaining "BORING..." all the time would actually learn to cherish your bored moments because some people don't even have the chance to feel bored..

and it's funny how, when you're so so so extremely tired, that's when many msn windows will start popping up..

anyway, enough of ranting here i guess.. in the midst of all the busyness, i really wanna be reminded that it's all to glorify Him and not myself.. and i don't want christmas to pass just like that.i also wanna be reminded about the true meaning of christmas..that's all for now.. till then !

SANTA IS A HOLIDAY.. JESUS IS CHRISTMAS. IT'S MERRY CHRISTMAS NOT HAPPY HOLIDAYS OR MERRY X'MAS.. JESUS IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON !

p/s. malaysian studies final exam's on monday..argh.. how am i able to switch on the studying mood again?

"breathe, eunice..breathe...."

YOUTH CAMP 2009 - CARPE MANANA

the most anticipated time of the year is unbelievably over... yes, camp was indeed way tooooooo short.. wish it was longer.. wish i'm still there right now.. everything in camp was great this year.. the rooms, the beds, the bathrooms, the environment, the games, the food and most importantly, the encounter and time spent with God.. the feeling of being able to just pour out your heart for Him is simply indescribable.. that's when you are not ashamed to let your tears keep flowing.. He is indeed my comforter, provider and my strength..

i really enjoyed listening to the speaker.. how the words she said deeply pierced through my heart and made me ponder and i really wanna hear from her again soon..the moment i heard her speak, i wished i've invited some friends but i didn't, cause most of my friends were still facing exams.. and our camp theme is supposed to be pronounced as "car-pei me-nya-na" which means 'seize tomorrow'..the digi coverage at the campsite was really bad but it was good in a way..only then i could focus on what's important even more so i kinda lost contact with the outside world for the past 2 days.. the only sad thing in camp was, i had a seemed-to-be non-existent guardian angel.. sad that he didn't even bother to find out who eunice lee was =( nevermind then, guess he's way too shy since he's new..

overall, youth camp 2009 is A-W-E-S-O-M-E !!!!!! i feel so recharged...

p/s. felt so tired after camp that i only woke up at 11.45am today when my dad called to ask if i wanna have lunch and i was like, 'what?? lunch?? what time is it now?' haha.. guess everything fun comes with tiredness =)

*yawns*

it's 3am and i'm still awake... just got the name tags done not long ago.. not complete until it's being laminated.. it's been a while since i last stayed up so late..

i experienced the snap of a guitar string for the first time today.. after three years.. it finally broke.. which means, i shall hesitate no more and get new strings!! thank God it didn't cut my face or anywhere else when it broke..so my guitar has got only 5 strings now..missing the E-string..

my sis and i finally went to watch 2012 on wednesday evening and guess what? the tickets were still selling like hot cakes! we reached there at 6.35pm and bought tickets for the 6.30pm show.. the cinema was filled up to the second row from the front and the miraculous thing was, there were 2 empty seats right in the middle, in the 6th row from the front just nice for the both of us.. that wasn't luck but truly God's grace...the movie was nice but kinda fake though especially the ending.. and i really wonder why there are still so many people watching it when the show's been out for more than a month..

okay, i think my bed's calling me now.. lol.. i'm off to bukit merah tomorrow.. wheee..! time to have some fun.. youth camp's really close too.. and my mind's turning haywire soon.. i have approximately 3 hours or less left to sleep now..

guess that's all for now.. till then !

declaration of freedom 2009...

exams are finally over, once again.. hard to believe but it's true and i'm so glad it's over.. i'm not sure how well i did.. how sufficient it was for me to pass but at least there's a hope for me to cling on to.. one thing for sure, GOD IS AWESOME ! i felt so helpless this morning.. my head felt empty, couldn't seem to recall anything and i kept praying for His help.. His strength and peace.. it didn't turn out so bad afterall.. not really good but better than i thought it would be.. at least i wasn't clueless..

anyway, forget about exams and it's the time of the year again! the short stress-free break which i get only twice a year.. which means, completely no-studying break cause there's nothing to study.. my mind feels so occupied right now.. anything but studies.. so much to do yet so little time.. i shall list out the upcoming tasks and events for the month of december here :

- preparation of name tags for youth camp
- search for presentation ideas for youth camp
- tidy up my messy room
- 9th - watch 2012
- 10th - out with friends
- 12th - bukit merah
- 13th to 15th - YOUTH CAMP
- 17th - college's scholastic day
- 18th - christmas pot bless
- 19th - college open day - carwash
- christmas choir rehearsal/practice
- 20th - bbq night ( maybe..still pending.. )
- 21st - malaysian studies final exam
- 22nd - going down to seremban to visit grandma
- 23rd - KL
- 24th - choir presentation in heritage hotel..
- 25th - CHRISTMAS
- 26th - coconut shell cave
- bbq with church friends
- 29th - night market
- 30th - badminton
- steamboat
- 31st - watch avatar
- watchnight service in church

guess that's about it for the time being...looks pretty packed and i'm sure there are more to come.. and my precious break will soon be gone..

i can finally have fun with no guilt at all!!

ALL THE BEST to all who are still facing or facing their giants soon !!! with GOD, ALL things are POSSIBLE =)

i came across this beautiful verse today :

Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for i will yet praise him, my Savior and my God. - Psalm 42:11 -

that's all for now..till then!

He promises to help you by His Spirit...

Then i will ask the Father to send you the Holy Spirit who will help you and always be with you.
-John 14:16-

Have you ever needed help? Of course you have. You may need help right now. All of us need help at some time or another. None of us are immune to the storms of life, but the good news is God sent the Holy Spirit to go with us through these storms. Not only did He come to fill us with power, but He was also sent to help us with each and every trial, each and every temptation, and each and every circumstance.

You may be going through something at this very moment, but you know what? The Holy Spirit is there right now ready and willing to help, even as you read this. In fact, if we will become aware of God's presence in us, there isn't anything that the devil can throw at us that we can't handle. Jesus, the greater one, lives on the inside! Nothing can stop us now! We have victory! He'll help you!

We depend on you, Lord, to help and protect us.
-Psalms 33:20-

The Lord helps them and saves them from the wicked because they run to him.
- Psalms 37:40-

In certain ways we are weak, but the Spirit is here to help us. For example, when we don't know what to pray for, the spirit pray for us in ways that cannot be put into words.
- Romans 8:26-

Children, you belong to God, and you have defeated these enemies. God's Spirit is in you and is more powerful than the one that is in the world.
- 1 John 4:4-

Taken from : The Promise Bible for Students - Contemporary English Version

came across this whole thing recently and it really struck me in the midst of all the tiredness preparing for the upcoming exams.. i feel so tired of studying right now.. just the thought of it makes me feel sleepy.. kinda been studying for exams since october or november, yet i'm so unprepared.. i know i should just surrender everything to Him.. but i still have doubts.. doubting if i've helped myself enough for Him to help me, for God helps those who help themselves..

FAITH is all i need right now..

my all time favourite verses in times of need :

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
- 1 Peter 5:7 -

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
- Philippians 4:13 -

that's all for now..till then!

celebrations..movies..memories...

i'm currently blogging in an almost super sleepy condition but i just want to, before i forget what i wanna blog about.. the past 3 days (including today) had been quite eventful as well as tiring thus equal to no-studying days..

thursday - celebrated a friend's birthday and watched new moon in the evening and guess what happened?? as we entered the cinema, we saw our seats occupied so we approached them and claimed the seats were ours.. we compared our tickets and were surprised to see the seat numbers exactly the same and only realised later that ours was dated on monday (30/11).. the tickets were already torn at the entrance and we didn't wanna watch on monday so we randomly sat somewhere but at the same time worried that we would be shoo-ed from seat to seat in the midst of the movie so somehow we managed to find out which seats were not occupied and ended up sitting right in front, in the second row..it's the first time i've experienced such a thing but oh well, everything has its first time, rite?? so there goes another first time. good thing it wasn't fast moving or anything so it was okay afterall.. and the movie was good.. despite it being slow moving a bit..

friday - met a friend whom i've not seen for exactly two years.. my 4years classmate in secondary school who was my deskmate for 2 years.. and that's none other than inder.. the joy that i felt was indescribable.. i really miss her though.. and she said, 'omg...u're still the same! ' lol.. how we used to talk and talk and talk in class about everything.. teachers and the same "best friends" we shared.. how we, the not so tall ones in class ended up queueing in front or behind each other... how she made me laugh with her evil witch laughter and i doubt i can ever resist laughing seeing that face of hers.. how i often got the last say in whatever senseless debates i had with her.. we only had a short conversation though but i was really overjoyed to see her..

then we celebrated a friend's farewell.. if you have been following my posts, she was the new friend i've mentioned before in a post.. i'm glad my impression of her stayed the same.. she's indeed such a great friend.. the one and only thing which i've gained from malaysian studies class was our friendship and for that i have no regrets taking that subject this semester.. we spent some quality time together in kbox and kenny rogers.. it really doesn't matter where we go and what we do when all you want is a fellowship with a friend.. i know i'm sure gonna miss her too..

saturday - had an early birthday celebration for irene today.. the decided place to eat wasn't opened yet.. no idea where else to go, we waited for about 30minutes to enter.. it was fun too and i'm sure you had a memorable one, right irene??

went to church after that for practice and watched the movie titled "Facing The Giants" during youth service.. we only got to watch the movie halfway through cause the dvd couldn't be played all of a sudden, at the very best scene.. must be evil lucifer at work.. he may be able to stop us from watching today, but it won't be for long.. the other half will be played next week but i guess i'll watch it first.. it's a really good movie, especially for those facing exams or other hardships and fears in life..

guess that's about it regarding the highlights of the week.. i can't believe november is soon coming to an end... 2009 is soon coming to an end too.. i seriously need to study really hard and smart this coming week.. i've got so little time left to study for the upcoming exams.. i need God's strength.. His wisdom and guidance and of course, memory power..

that's all for now.. till then !!

p/s. i've got a big hole in my pocket which can't be sewn till the end of december...

p/s/s. it's another wordy and lengthy post.. will maybe add some pictures when i'm more awake next time..

just another post...

since i've not been updating my blog with pictures for a long time, here are some pictures captured at Hard Rock Hotel when i went to penang recently.. yes, this is a delayed post..


the HUGE guitar outside the hotel.. not as huge as i thought though.. i expected to see a bigger and nicer one after seeing the newspaper article about it few months ago..


notice the unique design of the windows? looks kinda like the piano keys to me..


and my sole purpose there was to have a picture with the gigantic guitar..still, it was below my expectations..lol..




the beautiful chandelier hung above at the entrance of the hotel..


statues.. ignore the mineral water bottle.. perhaps, statues drink too??


swimming pool right outside the ground floor rooms where ground floor guests get to enjoy the swimming pool facility right at their door step without the need of walking pass the lobby wrapped in towels, dripping wet etc.. super convenient but of course, everything has a price to be paid.. the rates for ground floor rooms are about double the normal room rates..










a statue made in memory of Michael Jackson outside Hard Rock Cafe..


inside Hard Rock Cafe.. yet to dine in =)

as mentioned in the previous post, i've watched the Time Traveller's Wife in queensbay mall and indeed it was really good and the movie made me buy the book after watching it.. i'm not the kind who loves reading but i just wanted to get the book and i wonder when i'll ever read and finish reading it..

i watched Orphan too on the same day in the hotel room ( oh yes, i didn't stay in Hard Rock Hotel incase u thought i did ) and that's another good movie..exciting thriller with interesting and not so predictable storyline

and i've recently watched Disney's A Christmas Carol.. it was good too.. made me feel as if it's christmas already.. it'd be really nice to watch it on christmas day itself..

exams are getting nearer and nearer... so much to study, yet so little time.. or i should say i have about 2 weeks MORE to study, not 2 weeks LEFT to study.. that's what i learned from a tvb drama.. well, it's good to stay positive.. and i really can't believe november's coming to an end..there goes another year...

guess that's all for now..till then!

p/s. my english is seriously deteriorating..oh dear...

inspiration-less

i think i've seriously lost the blogging spirit for the time being.. seems like there's nothing much to inspire me to blog about recently..yes, so inspiration-less..

if you wanna know how i am, i would say just so so.. preparing for my exams in december but at a snail's pace.. not much feelings towards exams YET.. not too stressed up, not nervous, not worried.. just not YET.. i've been spending extra hours in college for the past few days, broke my own record for leaving college only after 6pm for 4 consecutive days and couldn't stand it anymore on the 5th day.. and the new guard's getting more annoying each day too..

okay, enough of all those moodless stuffs.. i'm gonna spend my weekend in penang..wheeeee....!!! penang, here i come! how i love travelling.. anywhere away from home for a vacation is what i truly enjoy..which means, it'll be a study-free weekend.. but oh well, i'll try to study a little to reduce the guilt level.. hehe..

guess that's all for now..till then!!

p/s. i'm so gonna watch "The Time Traveller's Wife"... hope it's really good..

passion...

last two days, as i was walking my dog home.. i heard a noise.. barks and sometimes it sounded like the cry of a baby.. then i saw 2 dogs bullying a dog... i only saw from afar.. then a malay man came on his bike and shoo-ed the 2 dogs away.. busybody dad and i, went over to see what happened later (concern actually..haha..) the man told us what happened and i was so touched and moved by his passion for dogs.. not being racist but generally, i think very few malays would rescue a dog.. no offense..

anyway, someone knew the dog's owner and went to look for her and the owner led the poor, badly injured dog home.. i hope she brought the dog to the vet..

nothing much to update lately.. malaysian studies presentation's finally over.. all the effort and trouble for the miserable 5marks.. i was so tensed up until i was actually at the verge of breaking down..yeah yeah, i know.. why bother about the 5marks.. i don't know either.. more troubles are on its way..

guess that's all for now.. till then..!

for the sake of updating...

here's a little bit of everything again, for the sake of updating..

- celebrated deepavali with school friends as well as college friends for the first time.. when i say celebrated, it means eat, eat and eat..

- got our car back with a new second hand door.. long story and i've got nothing to do with it.. i'm just the victim who's affected by not being able to go around freely.. haha.. anyway, power steerings are bad for driving health.. it makes me suffer when i go back to the normal one.. but it's quite fun though when i get used to it..i mean the power one..

- missed class for the very first time in my college life.. as far as i can remember.. i didn't know there was a change in the timetable.. ahh, who cares..it's just malaysian studies and i heard the lecturer has changed for the worse..oh darn..

- exam fever is yet to come.. i really have no idea how i'm gonna study and pass law.. gotta have more faith and just do my best.. this week's supposed to be a study break week but it feels just almost the same..

- oh yes, came back from my dad's friend's house for deepavali.. yummy curry and super adorable dogs! baby and spotty are so so so cute but i'm too lazy to post their pictures..

this is getting boring and i'm getting sleepier so that's all for now..till then!

it's your day!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!

to whom it may concern..LOL.. i mean, you.. you know who i mean if you're reading this.. you may not have enjoyed your day today, but i hope you will be able to tomorrow because it's still your day =)

so before the clock strikes 12.. once again, i wanna wish you a very blessed birthday and may God bless you with good health always =)

rest well and get well soon...

one of the worst nights ever...

had a great time playing badminton with my friends yesterday morning.. went to the salvation army food fair.. church for practice and youth and jusco to do some shopping with my parents.. i was really really tired by night thus went to sleep before 12 thinking i'd be able to have a good night sleep and wake up early the next morning.. it turned out to be the opposite, i got up every one or two hours feeling really sick and lost count of the number of times i threw up..

it feels really bad that when your favourite food is served right in front of you, all your stomach and appetite does is reject it..
i didn't wanna give in to the devil who's trying to stop me from going to church but somehow felt kinda defeated the moment i had to put down the guitar and rushed to the washroom.. slept through the whole afternoon till just now and i'll be off to bed again soon...

facts of life in the college's library..

in the library..

the day you switch the chairs to get a comfortable seat at a comfortable spot is the day the guard steps in and scolds you for doing so..

the day you forget to bring your student card into the library is the day the guard comes in to check for it..

the moment you rock the chair on two legs is the moment someone steps in and yells at you for doing it..whereas you've been sitting properly for the past one hour..

the moment you attempt to sleep for a while but fails to do so is the moment the guard steps in, sees you and thinks you were sleeping when you've actually been studying for the past one hour..

those were what i've experienced sitting in the college's library, as far as i can remember.. seriously, it happened at the very moment i did it.. the so called perfect timing that the very moment i did it, that's when someone came and saw me.. well i guess that's life.. that's reality.. one bad thing that you've done usually covers the many good things that you've done.. generally, people tend to remember the one bad thing more than the many good things..

guess that's all for now.. till then !

p/s. no malaysian studies for 2 weeks.. wHEeeeEeee!

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CARMEN WONG!!!

happy birthday carmen !!!!

11 years of friendship.. and of course, still counting.. cameras were not really in trend in school before 2004 so i guess that's why we had no pictures before that.. it's truly a blessing to have you in my life and thanks for always being there, for all the great help through all the years especially in college.. may you be successful in everything you do, be it big or tiny...

HAVE A BLESSED SWEET 19TH BIRTHDAY =)

p/s. i was so blessed with the i-consider-perfect parking lot today at the perfect timing.. when all i did was worried that i wouldn't be able to find a good space and prepared myself to walk a distance, God provided me with the ideal one instantly and that reminded me of how great He is.. and for not getting a summon when i didn't know i had to scratch parking coupons on a saturday afternoon..

p/s/s. this is one of my few birthday dedication posts.. don't get jealous =p for love does not envy..

Crazy Little Thing Called Love

i've finally watched the play as mentioned in my previous post and it was.....................

superbly AWESOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(if only i can make that word even bigger)

*thumbs up* *thumbs up* *thumbs up* *thumbs up*

i really really really loved it.. it's been a while since i last had a really good laugh watching something but of course, it's not just funny.. the footstool players are really professional.. they act professionally with no professional props nor special costumes yet the message is so clear.. it's my third time watching their different plays and i think this is the best so far..

their next and final stop will be in kuantan on october 3rd so if you have the chance to watch it in kuantan, don't miss it !!

wanna know more about them? check out their official website : Footstool Players

i've been out from morning till night for about 10 hours and i'm so very tired right now.. so i guess that's all for now..

" We love God best when we love each other well." - Steven Curtis Chapman

And now these three remain: FAITH, HOPE and LOVE. But the greatest of these is LOVE.
- 1 Corinthians 13:13 -

p/s. my sane dog is finally back tonight..probably because she was too hungry.. i hope she will remain sane even after tonight.. but that truly made my day as well - she, eating independently..

DO NOT use ur car wiper when attacked by eggs..!

i received an sms which says :

Don't use your car wiper if you were attacked by eggs.

If you are driving at night and were attacked by eggs, do not operate your wiper and do not spray any water. Eggs mix water becomes milky and block your vision up to 92.5% and you'll be forced to stop by the road side and become the victim of robbers. This is a new technique used by robbers in johor bahru.

so be extra extra careful... the society's really corrupted..

quote from my sis : robbers nowadays are turning scientific...

p/s. haven't been in the blogging mood lately.. nothing seemed to strike me to blog though i had such a great time catching up with high school buddies.. sleepover, dinner, badminton which caused bad muscle aches for the past 3 days, lunch, movie, korean bbq which burned my pocket, yum cha.. they were all AWESOME !!

i always liked the saying which says : true friendship is reached when two friends are comfortable with the silence between them..

p/s/s. looking forward towards the footstool play titled, "crazy little thing called love" tomorrow ! check my facebook status if u got the ticket from me..

no one knows...

i received a shocking news today in church, over the phone when my dad told me that our opposite neighbour passed away.. the one who lived directly opposite my house.. the one whose age isn't consider an old age.. the one who invites us to his house on the first morning of deepavali every year.. he's not really close to me cause we don't talk much except when i go across during deepavali.. but i do give a smile when i see him outside sometimes..

he died of heart attack at 3pm and when we reached home, there were quite many people outside.. i saw his two sons.. one who is still in primary school if i'm not mistaken.. and one just a few years elder than me.. i wonder if they could take it but they looked really tough and seemed all ok from afar.. i wonder how would his wife be able to accept it.. and his mother too..

makes me wonder each time i hear of a friend's death.. what if it's someone close to me? i often fail to appreciate the people around me though i know one day, i'll surely regret it.. i kept reminding myself.. but i still fail to cherish the people i love.. i know, one day, i too will have to learn to face deaths of people close to me but i just hope it won't be too soon..

no one knows what's gonna happen next.. only God knows, for He has a plan designated for each and everyone of us and He knows best..

check this out :



i guess this video should be a reminder to all of us.. to be grateful with what we have.. the ability to see, hear, and speak..

guess that's all for now..till then!

p/s. had only watermelon for dinner for some reasons.. and felt hungry after 2 hours thus drank milo.. haven't drank the 3 in 1 milo at home since a very long time ago... i wonder what bad can excessive intake of watermelon do to someone??

too many first times in a day...

it's finally over.. the day i dreaded.. the day which had been bothering me for almost the whole week.. the day which had been so burdening till i couldn't take it anymore but i held on.. and surely, God brought me through..

it wasn't so bad afterall.. led worship in youth for the FIRST time.. shared the message for the FIRST time which was really terrifying just thinking about it.. took over the guitar class for the FIRST time just for today..

wow... it's nothing great that i did all 3 in a day and i'm not trying to boast about what i did for it was all for God's glory.. worship leading is not easy.. it's my first time actually trying to synchronise with the band cause i usually just follow what the worship leader sings.. it's a totally different experience.. gotta really focus and know when to enter and u can't just stop singing whenever u feel like it.. sharing? haven't really spoken in front of a 'crowd' for 2 years already.. and i now know, don't type everything you planned to say onto the powerpoint.. guitar class? i'm not good enough to teach so it was just some basic stuffs the teacher taught me last year and indeed, not as easy as i thought it would be too.. takes more than just a desire to learn..

all in all... i'm still struggling to surrender everything to Him.. still trying to do things with my own strength most of the time.. i know it but i just can't.. i'm still trying.. i know it wasn't good enough because i still tend to hold back a lot...again, i gotta have more faith!

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5-6

p/s. oh yes, i learned another new thing - kilae maele kilae kilae, kilae kilae.. haha

09/09/09

it's the so called most auspicious day of the year ! i think.. haha.. i'm not conscious or superstitious about all these but i just wanna blog a post and get a nice time stamp, like everyone.. 09/09/09 which occurs only once in a lifetime.. every single date occurs once in a lifetime in fact just that certain dates looked more special...

the only extraordinary thing happened today which crossed my head is... getting fined for the first time.. for parking my car out of college's boundaries.. there's a "reserved" sign there.. i've never parked there before until last week or 2 weeks back when nothing happened even when i parked the whole day so i thought it would be fine since there were no other nearby parking lots available.. yeah, i admit, lazy-to-walk genes took place.. haha..

i'm really thankful that a friend of mine saw someone putting the notice on my car, nicely handwritten in caps ( which i was tempted to get a picture of it to post it here but was too panicked ) which says no parking and bla bla bla - fine rm50.. what?! 50 bucks? that would be so not worth paying.. i don't really know what happened after that, i moved the car, my friend showed the guard the notice, the guard talked to someone on a bike then nothing happened.. phew..thank God the car wasn't clamped.. i've really learned my lesson.. i won't ever park there again.. i'd rather walk further then to pay 50bucks, obviously..never knew it could be that serious..

and so, this is the reason to my latest facebook and msn status which says : ONCE bitten, TWICE shy, THREE TIMES a fool.. i won't do it again...

till then !!

p/s. i have a confession : i cheated to get this time stamp.. it's actually Sept 10th, 1.39am now.. i forgot the significance of blogging on the 9th till just now so the time stamp is adjusted.. hehe.. i sacrificed, i mean delayed some sleep time which means i'll wake up even later tomorrow.. indeed, everything has a price to be paid..

p/s/s. so much to do.. so much in mind.. mind feels so tensed up.. so lazy and tired as well.. i don't want saturday to come but at the same time wanna get it over quick..

p/s/s/s. oh yes, there goes a few more first times of mine - first time being fined (related to driving i mean), first time cheating on the time stamp and first time having a "p/s/s/s" on my post..

clueless and frustrated....

my dog has got an issue recently.. for about 2 weeks or more.. i don't know what's wrong with her.. she wants me or my sis or both of us to accompany her during her meal times.. she expects us to sit right next to her every time she eats, or at least stand there like pillars and watch her finish her food.. she leaves her food unfinished as soon as she realises we left her.. i should probably call that mental issue or psychology problem.. sometimes, it's because of lightnings and thunders or fireworks outside (which is normal for her to get terrified) but other times, there really isn't anything outside..

oh dear..if and only if i understand dog language.. i can't be accompanying her during all her meal times for the rest of her life and i really don't wanna get her pampered.. i'm really clueless of what to do.. i've given her a cold shoulder throughout the whole of today and i'll try to do the same tomorrow hoping she would understand why i did it.. i sometimes feel like breaking down seeing her like that.. it's so frustrating.. tonight, she didn't touch a single bit of her rice because she was so terrified by the faraway thunder sound, not even when i softly asked her to her bowl.. all she did was watch me from under the car.. it's like i have to beg her to eat the food i prepared for her..

save me from this misery... is she sick or what?? but it's not as though she has no appetite to eat.. i'm really clueless.. all i can do now is just pray that she would be fine again.. i guess prayer is the only remedy now.. that's all for now.. till then..

OH MY DEAR, DEAR, "PRINCESS"... WHEN WILL YOU EVER EAT JUST LIKE BEFORE AGAIN??

misery..observed by a police...new place and a new friend found..

do you know what's the most miserable thing in my life right now? it's the fact that i'm studying history again and it really stinks.. the lecturer gave us an open-book quiz today.. he only gave us really brief notes and good thing my sis has the text book so i borrowed it from her.. there were 2 essay questions which required not less than 500 words EACH which means 1000 words within 1 hour 30 minutes. i did think it was possible but of course it wasn't.. i read the question, opened the book and i wasn't even sure what to copy.. thank God i met a new friend and she helped me.. the quiz started at 2pm, due at 3.30pm but i only managed to submit it at 4pm.. the question paper did say that if we fail to fulfill the requirements or hand in more than 10 minutes late, 2.5marks will be deducted.. this quiz carries 10% for the finals.. 50 marks per question, which means, i am left with 7.5% = 75 marks.. and i just realised that i forgot to write my student id number on my answer script.. darn.. how many more marks gone, i don't know but it's disappointing and somehow bothered me when i was driving though it is so not important.. i've tried to put in so much effort yet i got penalised at the point i handed it in..

it's been a long time since i last wrote so many malay words in 2 hours.. a malay essay.. since spm about 2 years ago..wow.. i couldn't write 500 words for the second question though due to time constraint and clueless of the answer..my answer script was only 1 piece of narrow lined test pad, front and back..enough to fit 500 words in one page..the second page was only half or three quarters filled up.. history has been my enemy since standard 5 when kajian tempatan had some history elements in it.. i already knew history is not for me.. i battled with it, struggled through till spm, bid farewell and i so hate to meet it again now.. i just can't bear to study history anymore but i have to try my best to put away this hatred for the next few months..

as i was on my way to fetch my sis from college, i stopped at a traffic light which just turned red..first in line..it's a cross junction and i knew it would take some time for the light to turn green so i quickly sms-ed my friend to tell her that i've left college and when i put my phone aside, guess who was outside staring at me?? a traffic police !!! on his motorbike..OOPS..! i quickly looked away, act all focused on the road, worried he would fine me..thank God he just sped off when the light went green.. phew.. huge relief.. i wonder if sms-ing when the car is stationary at the traffic light is a road offence? my dad said it's not when the car is stationary.. then the police must have hoped i continued sms-ing when the car moves and that for sure will never happen..for now at least? i really don't unless i need to and that's when the car's stationary..

back home, my sis and i decided to go for a jog in polo ground cause i realise i really need to exercise.. wanted to play badminton, but no shuttlecocks..then my bro suggested we should go to a field nearby which we weren't really sure where.. so off we went.. me,sis and crystle-my dog..took quite a number of wrong turnings..made big rounds and we finally found the place..a really nice place with a jogging/cycling track, playground and gym-like equipments.. wow..!! it's my first time seeing colourful gym-like equipments just like the swings and slides in the playground but they're really exercising equipments..

crystle released some poop while she was chained somewhere on the grass.. a lady was there looking so my sis quickly grabbed a small plastic bag from the ground to pick it up while i went to get some tissues from the car and remembered there were no more tissues in the car so i took the maxis broadband brochure which had been lying on the dashboard since pc fair..tapao-ed the poop and threw it into the dustbin.. it's my first time tapao-ing my dog's poop..haha..anyway, i now know where to lose some fats.. a lot i mean.. haha.. a much more convenient place to go to..

back to the new friend i've mentioned.. some people, they're just so easy to be good friends with while some will always be the hi-bye friend.. i met this new friend, she's so nice,helpful and friendly and i'm excited to be closer friends with her.. and i'm really happy to know that she's a christian too cause i don't really get to meet christian friends in college except those in cf..she has a totally different background compared to mine and i feel blessed as i listened to her story..and i hope i won't regret being friends with her one day because i've met a few whom, after knowing them for a period of time, i stepped back because i felt i should and i think i tend to mix with the wrong people..i hope and i believe it won't happen this time though.. well, at least i gained something through pengajian malaysia class - a new friendship which made it more worthwhile for me to attend the classes..

i tried to keep this short but there's just too much in mind..different colours indicate different events..it's ok if you didn't read it cause i will read it again someday.. that's all for now.. till then !!

p/s. everyone knows i LOVE tweety and everyone knows i HATE history..

Luther Vandross - Dance With My Father...

nothing much to update about lately so i'll just post this really old song which caught my attention recently after watching x factor (i think it's my first time hearing it).. the guy sang it really well.. it's a pretty meaningful song..

Dance With My Father by Luther Vandross



and i really love the video below :



i'm not allowed to embed the x factor video so here's the link to it : Click Here


p/s. getting lazier by the day.. trying my best to kick of my laziness.. there goes another week.. another couple of hours of misery in pengajian malaysia for the next two days..oh, and i love the cold weather =)

p/s/s. oh yes ! and i'm into watching x factor all of a sudden.. hehe.. but i still prefer britain's got talent which of all ages and a wider variety of talents..

another first time, another achievement..

i finally drove an automatic car.. ALONE.. today.. hehe..feels like an achievement though cause i actually had to learn the functions of P,R,D and N harder than learning what's 1 to 5 and R on the manual gear.. sounds dumb, i know.. who needs to learn how to drive an automatic car right? i do, and i'm not ashamed of it cause i feel proud to be a manual driver.. not boasting.. just proud..

the auto car i drove has a power steering too and i so don't wish to be pampered by the gear and the steering..it's much wider, more spacious, narrower view of the back which means, more blind spots!! thus, more concentration needed which leads to increase in loss of energy..LOL.. anyway, it's fun but i still prefer driving the old junk which i've always driven..

guess that's all for now.. there goes another "first time" which i consider an achievement.. hehe..till then !!

wallence and isaac.. victims of the inhumane beings..

once, there lived two dogs at the other end of the road.. two really cute local breed dogs.. wallence which looked like a labrador retriever while another named isaac which looked like a polar bear..such cool names they had..

here's a picture of wallence :


that was when he was 2 to 3 months old i think? indeed far bigger than any other dogs his age..


i don't really know his owners so i only managed to capture his picture through the fence..

wallence loves my dog, crystle so he never barks at me but whines each time he sees me with crystle...

then came isaac into picture not long later..



as cute as polar bear.. too adorable for a mongrel but he won't stop barking at me and crystle..

as my sister was walking crystle today, the owner of wallence and isaac told her about something which happened to his dogs.. wallence and isaac were poisoned to death.. someone threw those poisons which are used to kill rats into the compound and they both ate it.. i've said it once and i'll say it again.. how can one be so heartless to such harmless dogs?? don't you know that dogs are men's best friends? they can be really noisy at times but i just don't get it.. must you kill?? such inhumane beings..

i really love watching them.. all their mischiefs.. i once saw them tearing and biting used sanitary towels..yes, i know that's really really gross... and another time, i saw them fighting over a sock, each took one end of it.. i think i haven't seen them in a while cause it's been a while since i last walked my dog..



i truly understand how the owner feels right now.. losing 2 dogs in a night.. i'm worried for my dog too.. dogs are just too curious to get a taste of everything..i'll surely miss the whinings and barkings of wallence and isaac each time i'm gonna pass their house again..



that's all for now.. may wallence and isaac rest in peace and i hope the inhumane murderer will soon regret of his/her act for taking away such innocent lives..

p/s. currently having stomach upset..sometimes felt like vomiting too.. since this morning.. hope it'll be ok tomorrow.. funny how class was suddenly cancelled today so i only had one class.. otherwise, i wouldn't be able to hang on for another 1 hour and 30 minutes in class..and when i think of it, it reminds me of how amazing God is.. He knew i wouldn't be able to stand the pain anymore even before the stomachache became really bad in class so He let me go home without missing any classes... so i had a good 3-hour sleep in the evening..hehe...

mixed feelings...

once again, the examination results for last june were out.. it was released at about 12pm, precisely yesterday since it's past midnight now..i only came online 12 hours after it was released (cause i didn't wanna spoil my day, incase it does) to check my results.. as i opened my email, i scrolled through the junks - notifications from facebook and friendster.. i don't see any of my results email and i'm surprised.. so i logged in to my account on the official website, unsure of my password but eventually it logged in..

the moment the page loaded, my heart "jumped" out.. the indescribable feeling.. like goose bumps but it's not.. and indeed, i passed all the papers and i'm amazed by the results i got.. i know i'm not smart.. i wasn't so hardworking either.. one of the 4 papers, i did really badly..it's really shocking.. i don't deserve such marks and i know it is by God's grace that i passed.. not just pass but passed with flying colours..that was the toughest semester i went through so far (more to come) and God truly brought me through despite how often i've failed him.. how often i didn't put my trust in Him and worry.. again, i've gotta have more faith in Him..

it's really a huge relief, now that i can officially set both feet on where i am now.. no worries about deferring classes.. yet, the feelings after i knew my results were indescribable either.. there were mixed feelings.. i don't know.. but i'm happy..all glory to God and not me..

LAN subject's commencing tomorrow.. oh gosh, i'm gonna meet my "worst enemy" again.. i've not touched history in ages and i dread to meet history again.. i thought i bid farewell with history in form 5.. it's called pengajian malaysia by the way..what a waste of time.. i should have got it done earlier but the timetables were clashing.. i don't even know who's taking it with me cause all my friends have already taken it..

guess that's all for now.. i'm late for bedtime, again.. till then !!

p/s. congrats to all who passed even if you didn't pass certain papers..celebrate the papers you've passed.. and i read this somewhere : don't get disappointed when God doesn't give you what you want..for He knows the best time for you to have it..

my mouse "crush".....

i saw an egg mouse at the pc fair in penang a few months ago and it was SO cute but i didn't really need it so i didn't buy it.. then i saw it again in ikano last month.. so tempted to get it but again, i didn't really need it and i was afraid it wouldn't be practical..

2 days back, my mouse couldn't be clicked properly anymore.. and it's time to get a new one and pc fair's just around the corner.. so i went to the fair today to get one.. the cute egg mouse isn't in trend anymore so it was nowhere to be seen at first until i finally spotted it somewhere before i left..after debating if i should get a branded one which would last longer, or get the 20bucks egg mouse.. i finally got the egg mouse.. one i've been longing to get.... the branded one was too expensive so i'd rather get this...



cute isn't it?? and it's pink.. hehe.. yet to be tested if it actually works..



see how round it is? just like an egg...



and i later felt so cheated by the promoter.. i asked if the displayed pink one ( which was a brighter metallic pink ) was the same as this, and she said yes.. she convinced me by telling me that the casing made it look different.. indeed, it's totally different when i opened it in the car.. the displayed one looked classier though and the brand seems different too.. could have went back to change but nevermind.. i believe in fate and destiny.. probably i'm destined to have this.lol. i just felt cheated because she told me it was the same..

guess that's all for now.. i've finally got my 'dream' mouse.. hehe.. till then!

i feel good... again.. [one-day-nanny]

today marks another memorable day.. woke up early in the morning, fetched my brother to church and headed to mc donald's to meet up with my friends and then to lost world of tambun for a charity event organised by sunway club.. there were supposed to be 200 orphans - 100 from ipoh and 100 from penang but i wonder if the ipoh ones turned up..anyway, my friends and i volunteered ourselves to take care of a child each and some 2.. i got 1.. randomly picked a kid who looked good.. as in, not naughty and off we went..

it wasn't really easy to entertain a shy kid like her and i really felt i made her feel bored and lonely and i felt sad when she told me she wanted to play with her cousin who was taken care of by someone else whom i don't really know.. but i felt really happy each time she remembered to look for me rather than just stray away somewhere and make me look for her..thank God i didn't have to hunt for her.. oh yeah at one point she abandoned me because she wanted to join her friends but didn't in the end probably because she couldn't.. haha.. i felt like her servant sometimes but a delighted one.. i felt happy each time she requested me to do something for her..

the climax of the event for me was when i lost the rented tube.. i left it under my friend's care to 'escort' 2 lil kids up to take the slide and when i came down, it was gone.. 'my kid of the day' ran around with me searching high and low for it because it is numbered and after running one whole round around, we found it somewhere near where we lost it.. having to run around with me like that, she didn't mind at all.. i at first felt a lil bit regret choosing such a quiet and shy girl like her but later i'm grateful i got her.. we returned the tube and quickly went to change our clothes to prepare to go home.. as she walked towards the bus going back to penang, she looked back at me a few times and waved goodbye with a sincere smile.. so i guess, she liked me afterall? lol..

i came back feeling really good.. despite all the tiredness, body aches and minor scratches on my legs...i'm not crazy but i felt happy looking at the scratches because it brought back those memories..and not forgetting, sunburn! i didn't realise at all that i've got sunburn till i came home and saw my red face (not the whole face).. like one who's drunk..LOL..and i actually love it..and i don't think i've ever seen my face red like that..it usually turns dark instantly .haha. it's been a while since i last got sunburn and that feels good too..

the stripe caused by the tube rental strap.. funny how i had a strap around each wrist but only striped on one wrist.. it must have been a tighter one according to my sis and indeed, it's true..the other one was looser so nothing happened..

guess that's all for now.. till then!

p/s. i again realised that God really assured me that when my prayers seemed to be unanswered, He indeed has an awesome plan behind it..

p/s/s. kai yi, i'm so gonna miss you !!! and all the great times we had together =)

p/s/s/s. warlord of terror (st michael's play this year) was nice.. like the costumes and the props..cekap!

33 Miles =)

came across this song called Jesus Calling sung by 33 Miles.. a band i never knew existed.. a band which stands up for Christ.. sings for Him.. inspires and encourages others..
and the moment i heard this song, i loved it..so why not spend a few minutes to listen to this beautiful song?



this is another beautiful and inspiring song by them.. Hold On..

fun + nightmare = ?

we had another sleepover in kai yi's house last night since she will be leaving soon.. me, yan lin, hun fern and of course, kai yi.. wanna know where we landed in the midst of all those fun?? the police station... here's what happened..

my dad fetched me to kai yi's house at about 9pm and we had to meet alicia in yeolde english in ipoh garden east at around that time so kai yi's dad sent us there.. yan lin and hun fern came later..we ate, drank (juice, of course..) and talked and talked and talked till it was 12 something midnight and the place was about to close.. we all accompanied alicia to 7eleven in her car and she then fetched us to hun fern's car.. in we got and there we went.. at a T-junction, hun fern made a quite sudden break when she saw a motorbike with no lights on coming from the right.. it wasn't even close.. no close accident, not blocking their way, absolutely nothing.. 2 indian guys ( i don't think "guy" is the appropriate word to use on them, those, fella will do..) so the two indian fellas, as they passed out car..one showed his ugly filthy middle finger at us but we weren't bothered anyway..

until we reached polo ground.. as we were turning into the housing areas, there were no other cars on the road except our car and a motorbike.. the bike overtook us a few times i think and i wondered why they were going so slow even after overtaking? a normal motorcyclist would overtake and speed off..in fact all drivers would.. and i suddenly realised that the striped shirt worn by the fella was familiar and i was pretty sure they were tailing us.. kai yi then remembered they were the ones we saw in ipoh garden east.. the road was empty.. they were in front of us, we knew we shouldn't overtake them so hun fern drove on..i knew they turned according to our car signal and that's why they managed to tail us from the front without us realising..

suddenly, they stopped in front of us.. one of the fellas, took off his helmet (and later the other fella did as well), swung it (in the cowboy swinging his rope manner) and as we got nearer to them, they hit the helmet on the roof of our car so hard.. we all got panicked and hun fern sped on while kai yi directed her to her house.. it would be safe if we manage to reach the front gate of her house since there's a guard house there..they were chasing after us.. they continued hitting the car roof and windows with their helmets each time they got close enough..the impact was so strong.. kai yi called her dad for rescue..yan lin helped hun fern watch the way.. banged the curbs at a few turnings.. i was so worried that the car would crash and not be able to move..

we were all so scared and panicked... prayer wasn't the first thing that came to mind but after a while..i remembered.. and i prayed.. but i was too panicked, i didn't know what to pray for and i think i barely prayed for anything.. all i prayed in my mind was, "God, help us !! ".. and so, we didn't manage to turn into kai yi's house because they were blocking the way at the side and we went straight on till we saw the main road and went out there.. they were still chasing after us.. i asked hun fern to drive to the nearest police station but i had no idea where the nearest one was..thank God kai yi knew exactly where the nearest police station was in medan gopeng.. as we reached a traffic light, it turned red !!! we were so scared but the road was busy enough so they probably didn't dare to do anything.. i guess that's the busiest road at nite..where the bus station is.. we turned into the police station, quickly got down and ran into the police station.. by the way, it was past 12.30am..

we told the police what happened but we didn't and couldn't see their number plate at all so we couldn't lodge a report.. we just wanted to find a safe place to hide anyway.. kai yi's dad came to fetch us.. afraid those fellas would recognise hun fern's car if she was to drive back to kai yi's house, so she left her car at the police station overnight.. and that was it...

i strongly believe and know that it all happened for a reason..it didn't happen because we were unlucky neither were we safe because we were lucky.it is definitely part of God's plans and i'm sure he's behind it.. as the event flashed back in my mind on the way back, i kept thinking, what if i wasn't in the car? what if kai yi wasn't in the car? what if i was the one driving?? i don't think i had the guts to keep driving and not crashing.. there was a reason why each of us was in the car... kai yi called for rescue, me who noticed they tailed us..hun fern the brave driver, yan lin watching the way sitting next to hun fern.. i can't imagine what would have happened if either one of us was not there.. and i thank God that there was only one bike and not 2 or more otherwise we wouldn't have escaped..

i really wonder what they wanted from us.. there's hardly anything that they could rob from us.. they followed all the way from ipoh garden east to polo ground which is quite far.. and how blur i was not to realise it earlier.. we never thought something like this would happen to us but i guess the four of us now really learned a lesson.. not to go out so late.. not to drive so late, it's not safe even if you're in a car.. thinking about going out now freaks me out.. alicia felt guilty for what has happened but we were all glad that it wasn't her who met those fellas because she was alone and we're really glad that she reached home safe and sound..

back in kai yi's house, we definitely couldn't sleep.. heart still pumping quite fast.. the incident just kept playing in our heads.. we played cards, chat, watch movie but each time my mind was idle, it just kept coming, the picture of the fella swinging the helmet in front of us.. the impact i felt in the car.. couldn't sleep even when it was already 5.30am.. kept thinking about it and i think i slept at about 6am.. it came to my mind again when i woke up at 9am..it was just so terrifying..anyway, i shall jump to the fun part cause the nightmare part can go on and on..

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had char siew pau for breakfast, tapao-ed by kai yi's dad.. and we went cycling! haven't cycled for the past 8 to 10 years i think and i was never good at it either.. eventually, i managed to cycle after having some difficulties to balance the myself on the bike and it was FUN! went to the swimming pool but too lazy to get wet so we just stepped into the wading pool.. then we watched a bit of big bang concert.. i'm not so into it though.. went home at about 12 something and then to church for practice at 2pm..

after youth, kai yi and i went to joyce's church for steamboat.. it was a family night so there were icebreaker, praise and worship, pot bless + steamboat and sharing.. it's really fun and they're all like one big happy family.. joyce does entertain her guests well..lol.. proud eh??

well, there goes another lengthy post but i hope u read it this time so you would take extra precautions too whenever you're outside..i only had 3 hours of sleep.. oh gosh.. i must not oversleep tomorrow.. the whole bad incident feels like a dream now.. a horrible nightmare which haunts me each time i think about it.. and it's the 6th time i'm repeating the nightmare story...

guess that's all for now.. till then !

p/s. thanks kai yi, hun fern, yan lin, alicia and joyce for the great times we had together =)