no more studying for the rest of 2010!!

it's here... it's finally here !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my long awaited precious break is finally here.. it's been 6 months since i had my last stress free break.. exams are over.. didn't do well but i'm glad it's over, for now at least... no more gluing myself to notes or books, no more falling asleep at the study table, dreading to wake up to study every day, no more guilt for coming online or watching television.. it's as though i've been studying so hard all these while but that's not true... i really need mercy and i hope the examiner would be lenient and merciful to me.. though i know i don't deserve it..

and i've recently learned to be grateful for the opportunity to face exams because many kids out there don't even have the chance to go to school.. so aren't we privileged??

anyway, it's time for pure fun and enjoyment now and i've got to cherish every moment of this precious break of mine.. so what's next ??

To-do list:
- read "A Friend Like Henry" - a non-fiction book i fell in love with at the sight of it's cover, title and storyline..and i've got a good record of books which i've read only 3 quarter through and left unfinished till now..
- christmas shopping
- camp name tags
- dramas, movies etc..
- laundry

Event list:
- christmas event in my former school's orphanage
- cell group christmas celebration
- college convocation day
- youth camp in malacca
- family trip in malacca
- housewarming party in mun teng's house

that's all i could think of for now.. gosh i think i've lost my words again.. been a while since i last blogged.. and it's been a while since i've last stayed up so late..

till then !!

the story of a stone cutter...

Once there was a stone cutter whose job was to cut stones daily. As time went on, he got tired and bored of his job. He looked at the sun which shone so brightly and wished he could be the sun. Puff! He turned into the sun and he was so happy when the people ran away from him under the shades and umbrellas. He thought he was so powerful that everyone was afraid of him but suddenly, a cloud came in front of him and blocked his light and heat so he wished he was a cloud. Puff! He became a cloud. He caused rain and thunderstorms and blew away almost everything so he was really happy.

However, there was one thing which he could never move no matter how hard he tried. The huge boulder stood still and strong despite the strong wind so he wished to be that boulder. Puff! He turned into that boulder. Then came a stone cutter who started cutting stones from the boulder and that's the end of his life..

The lesson behind this story : We should be contented with who we are and not try to change it for God made us who we are, not to be something or someone else. His plans are just and perfect for each and everyone of us. If we would just wait upon Him, we will enjoy the fullness of the destiny He has for us.

p/s. so there goes an update, after two months.. hope it didn't bore you =) till then !

without Christ, i am nothing..

it's been awhile, again, since i've last updated.. so much have been happening.. went for mission trip in a sabahan church in permatang pauh.. then young adults cell outing in bandar utama etc.

i just got back from the wildfire party organised by campus revolution.. i was contemplating about going for it before this cause i was too lazy and had no idea what the party was about.. i'm not sure if that's what God wants me to do in cf.. my mind's a mess now.. one thing for sure, i can't do it alone.. i need Him..

then i questioned myself, it's been 2 years, 2 months and 10 days.. what have i done so far? have i made a difference? i've only got another less than 2 years and there are still too many fish.. oh God, i can't do it alone....and i know, i can never do enough..

spend some time to watch this video about a muslim who encountered Jesus.. it is definitely worth your 8 minutes to hear this life changing testimony..



He is the Alpha and Omega - the beginning and the end. He loved us even before we were formed in our mother's womb. He died for us so that we may live. How can one be not moved by this amazing fact??

undeserved favour

today, i mean yesterday (23rd) was another most anticipated time of the year and most people call it doom's day.. why? because results for the june examinations were released.. i wasn't worried at all until this afternoon when i saw all the status updates posted by other people on facebook..

anyway, i didn't check my results until just now at about 12am.. and by God's grace, i passed !!! yup, it is not by my own effort but an undeserved favour that He has granted me.. i know i've been slacking a lot in my studies throughout the whole of last semester and that's why i really didn't know what to expect this time.. i'm just so glad that i don't have to retake those 2 papers.. phew..! what a relief...

i don't deserve any praises for my results but all glory goes to Him alone..

congrats to all who passed !! and if you didn't make it, don't give up !! everything happens for a reason and only God knows what's best for us =)

that's all for now..till then !!

p/s. it's time i really start studying.. and i kept saying this...

the brain consuming game...

it's been about 3 years since i've last touched the chess pieces and i joined the chess competition in college today.. as ever, it was brain consuming.. only 3 games and my brain's too tired for anything now.. i've never really liked chess though but somehow i've joined a few chess competitions during high school.. must be the great influence by my desk mate - inder...

anyway, i lost and it doesn't matter at all.. i gained a lil bit of my high school memories.. so nostalgic..

that's all for now.. till then !

there goes..

well, there goes another saturday.. last two saturdays, i was in lost world camping.. last saturday, i was in lost world again.. just now was another good saturday which i had.. woke up in the morning, a lady stood at the gate wanting to share her good news with me.. yes, her good news.. somehow i didn't want to reject her so i entertained her.. i found out that she's from the Jehovah witness and all the more i was curious to listen more and shared what i think and believe as well.. if only she was preaching the truth.. and how good it is if we christians have the same enthusiasm and courage to preach the real good news instead from door to door.. i wish my neighbours didn't entertain her though..

went to church as usual in the afternoon then sue jane's farewell dinner at night.. gosh, i'm so gonna miss you, sue jane.. can't believe you're leaving already =( attended a wake service after that.. a church member passed away so i went to help to serve.. i love serving God more and more.. it simply adds meaning to life.. and i was reminded that, no matter what happens, the hope that we cling on to is not the hope of the present but the eternal hope we have in Jesus.. the world may fail you but Jesus never will..



then i had a quite adventurous journey back home after the wake service too finding my way out of the not-so-familiar housing area at night.. it's been a long and tiring day, but i'd consider it another fruitful saturday which i enjoyed =)

i've been updating quite regularly these days but i think my blog's seriously lack of pictures.. so here's something random =)



till then !!

double portion !!

guess what?? i'm back from hillsong's concert.. not just tonight but last night as well.. i thought i wouldn't be able to go on wednesday since i didn't register for it and suddenly the night before, joyce told me she had an extra registration code which i could use.. felt guilty for taking it at first but accepted the offer in the end.. God's plans are just so amazing.. nobody knows what would happen.. never have i thought that i would be able to go for the first night.. He truly answers my unsaid prayers.. deep down, i regretted not signing up, wanting to go for it but never prayed about it.. and once again, He showed me that nothing is impossible..

it was really good though i couldn't get a good view.. mostly staring at heads and the screen in between heads... the message was good - about us being significant enough being His child and there's no need to try to fit into anywhere.. pretty much similar to what we're learning in youth now.. and what i anticipate most at evangelism concerts is to see hands raised up saying - yes, Jesus, i wanna accept You into my life! i was really inspired by the hands lifted up for Him..

the first night's concert was great.. second even greater !! got a much better view, different songs sang, different message shared.. this time about us getting on track and be on His plan and win more souls to Christ.. there were more prayer sessions too - it's funny that i coincidentally prayed for 2 persons of the same name, one a friend, another a stranger.. i felt really touched and inspired by His people.. well, no words is enough to describe what i felt and experienced..

hmm..think i've suddenly lost my words.. so i guess that's all for now..
ALL GLORY TO GOD FOR THE SUCCESS OF THE WHOLE EVENT!!

p/s. i'm destined for something great and yeah, He knows...

p/s/s. and i just realised that it's friday the 13th...

they made me go ' wow !! '

i bet everyone knows about the upcoming hillsong concert by now, at least the majority.. people have been talking about it for the past one month.. the anticipation by hillsong fans as well as criticisms by people who don't really like hillsong and can't believe the fact that they're coming..i think i was neutral all these while..not really anticipating or going crazy to meet them nor bothered much about the rumours..

few weeks ago, a lady from the organising team gave me a call to meet up with them for some reasons which i was clueless about until i finally had the chance to meet them yesterday, both husband and wife who are the head of this hillsong concert organising team.. not gonna post the details of the main agenda of the meeting here yet but you know what?? i was really inspired listening to them.. they are just so passionate for God.. so passionate with what they're doing.. they have a strong desire to make a change in ipoh, to call people to rise up for Christ here in ipoh and to make things happen for Him..

i was really touched by their passion.. people out there who are talking bad about them and this whole event ought to feel ashamed of themselves.. they should really meet them face to face and get to know them before coming up with unwholesome talks.. talking to them just made me go 'wow!' all in all, they are just God's passionate people..

oh yeah, incase you're planning to go for the concert in syuen hotel this wednesday but have not registered, you are advised to go for it on thursday instead because it is already fully packed on wednesday and you'll need to produce a registration code upon entrance.. argh..if only i knew..

guess that's all for now.. till then !

p/s. class is cancelled tomorrow.. wheeee !!!! =)

just so H-A-P-P-Y !!!

here i am, back after another long day out.. i've been out from 8.15am till 9.30pm.. and guess where i was the whole day? i was in lost world of tambun..yes, again.. the place where i camped for a night last weekend.. i volunteered myself again for the charity event organised by sunway club, if you've been following my updates consistently, i blogged about it last year - click here for more details..

it's my second time joining and i feel as good and happy as i felt last year after the event.. the girl i took care of this time was an eleven year old girl, only half a head shorter than i am.. *embarrassed* she's different from the one last year.. she's more talkative, friendlier and more active too cause she refused to leave the water in the end.. and she definitely understood that my role was to take care of her while she was to cling onto me all the time though i lost sight of her a few times..

and sunway really provided us with lots of food.. within such a short period of time, we were given breakfast, lunch, tea break and ice cream.. it was my first time visiting the quite new petting zoo and i find it really good.. for the first time in my life, i touched goats !!! haha.. one was so super friendly and it was chewing my shirt.. and i had fun feeding the swans too..

the girl i looked after bought me a cup of coke at the end of the event.. wow.. an eleven year old girl knows how to buy me a drink !! i feel really happy that she enjoyed herself and that i had the opportunity to serve her.. and i enjoy the sunburn that i've got too.. i burned my sculpt as well.. was expecting something as red as last year but it's not as red this time..just a little bit cause it wasn't as sunny..

went to church after that and i just felt so happy.. felt as though it's been a long time since i last went for youth service cause i missed last weeks' service.. words simply can't describe how good and happy i felt..

okay, i guess i better end this post by saying i'm just sooooooooooooooooo H-A-P-P-Y !!!

p/s. sorry, no pictures again.. hehe..

Sunway Ipoh Boot Camp

camp is finally over !!! the thing which has been taking up so much of my free time.. it has finally come to an end.. that's simply because i was in the organising team and i never liked being in the organising team since high school.. it's not easy to keep participants occupied and entertained, afraid they won't enjoy, afraid they would feel bored.. but all in all, i think the camp was good overall though there were faults here and there..

we walked so much throughout the 2 days and 1 night camp.. it takes 10 minutes to walk from our campsite to the entrance and i lost count of how many times we walked in and out.. and i didn't bathe at all throughout the camp.. hehe.. was simply too lazy and didn't see the need to bathe.. i'll get dirty again after bathing anyway.. when it comes to camping, i don't care much about hygiene.. it's only 1 night afterall..

throughout the camp, i really learned a lot and i realised that i'm no longer the same me as i was back in high school.. i wasn't so worried about the camp before it started and that was what made me worry - worried for not feeling worried.. i prayed so hard that it won't rain during the camp but it rained heavily.. that didn't mean God didn't answer my prayer, He just said no.. it was good in a way that the rain took up most of our free time during camp.. and there were people who tried so hard pushing me to my limits trying to earn their significance or for whatever reason i don't know.. what made me realise that i'm longer like before was the ability to keep reminding myself that it really didn't matter at all for i am already significant enough being called child of God.. it really doesn't matter what people think of me.. i wish everyone would just realise that nothing matters more than being His child..

and then there were people who weren't really participative.. i guess i was supposed to get angry at them cause everyone else was, but you know what? i wasn't angry at all... i didn't have high expectation towards them in the first place and i'm glad enough they came for the camp despite how much problems they gave.. back in high school, i would have scolded and punished them.. i just didn't wanna get angry during the camp.. i managed to held back all the anger that i had..

i'm not trying to make myself sound like an angel here but i believe, God has really changed me over the years and i give all the glory back to Him for being able to held back anger and reject satan's lies that i'm not important.. people often talk about how God change them, i always wonder - how has He changed me then? and i now realised.. He gave me so many reasons to overcome the bad feelings i had.. gosh..God is simply amazing !!

oh yes, i only slept for 2 hours during the camp.. i fell asleep watching tv when i came back for another 2 hours.. woke up and slept again for 9 hours.. i wonder if it's enough.. this camp was really a great experience.. it's like a once in a lifetime experience.. i love outdoor camps but i'm not sure if i'll be joining another one like that again anytime soon.. and i'm glad it's over.. it's really time to start catching up with my studies..

sorry, i tried to keep this short but my fingers wouldn't listen =p no pictures yet.. i know my blog is picture deficit.. will try to work on that.. till then...!

p/s. thank you fellow campers for all your support and participation!!! (if anyone of you would read this)

p/s/s. the after effect of camp - i can't walk properly now.. i always believe that fun comes with aches and tiredness =)

can't wait.. can't wait...

july is finally coming to an end.. yes, FINALLY !!!!! this is one super rare phenomena which i'm actually so glad that another month has passed cause i usually sigh over the passing of every month..

if i've ever mention about a camp in my previous posts, it's finally here.. and i can't wait till it's over!!

so yeah, i'm welcoming the new month with open arms this time ! oops, it's still july.. hehe..

till then !!

i need a break....

i've been wanting to update a post with all the nice pictures of events i've captured recently but i just couldn't find the right time and the right mood to upload the pictures into my computer.. been so caught up with things lately, mainly college activities.. and i asked myself, where have my precious break gone to?? i hardly felt like i had a break besides not studying..yeah, not needing to study for the past 2 weeks or more is actually more than good but an ideal semester break would be no studying + no college.. of course i don't mind going back for cf but i felt dragged into many other stuffs..

my head was at the verge of exploding once again this evening.. yes, i need God's strength to juggle with all these things.. i really can't take it alone.. i don't mean i have responsibilities to be handled alone, but taking even apart of it without His strength and guidance is impossible.. when all these things are over, i guess it'll be time to draw myself back and focus on what's important.. it's time i really take my studies seriously and manage my time well cause i failed to do so last semester..

and you know what being BUSY mean?? it means Being Under Satan's Yoke..well, i saw that somewhere and i agree with that if one is too busy for God.. and at one point, i felt so tired of excuses.. excuses people give when they are simply not interested.. you know, it's fine with me if you just say "No, because i'm not interested" rather than wasting brain juice creating excuses..

anyway, i'd still consider my break a fruitful one - selling fruit juice on open day, birthday celebrations, spring cleaned my room, watched A-Team and Toys Story 3, dined in sushi king and ate a lot of rice, parents day in church, watch korean drama - you're beautiful and so forth..

and what's next?? worship seminar and youth concert is on tomorrow !!! hearing about the preparations makes me excited but i'm not physically nor mentally prepared for it yet so i need a sufficient good night sleep tonight.. if you're reading this and you can make it for the youth concert at 7pm tomorrow (saturday) don't hesitate to come !! u can check out the event on facebook for more details.

guess that's all for now.. sorry for another post full of ranting.. yes, that's what my blog is for..
till then!

the last two minutes...

it's the last two minutes of my last teen-age..
gosh...unbelievable...

another first time...

it's been 4 days since my semester break started.. and d last 2 days - friday and saturday were the super happening ones.. cf, bulk purchase of fruits, bbq, night bible study, open day..and to top it all, i got myself into an accident.. yup, it was me who got myself into it.. a terribly stupid, careless and reckless mistake.. not gonna post much details here.. a car knocked into mine but it was my fault.. i was in a hurry, rushing for time that i made the wrong judgement... wrong estimation..

thank God i wasn't injured..nobody was.. and the impact that i felt wasn't too strong.. my friend who was nearby came to help.. it's my first time after driving for more than 2 years.. in my first year of driving, i've only knocked into the gate, pole, roof tiles, never a car.. i obviously wish it didn't happen but i believe God wants to give me this solid tangible lesson to lower my boosting confidence level in driving.. when accidents happen, a lot of what ifs usually pop up in people's minds and fingers will be pointed everywhere.. i hate "what ifs" because it wouldn't change a thing..

i believe, even if it didn't happen today at that very spot, it may still happen some other time, somewhere else, probably worse.. i thank God that the driver who knocked into my car wasn't fierce though he wasn't pleasant looking (yeah, probably cause he's not the one paying) but i'm really grateful for that..i know how scary and fierce most drivers are on the road.. yeah, deep down, i know what God is trying to teach me.. and i thank Him that it only cost my bank account.. and my dad's which i'm guilty of.. my mum and sis definitely know how poor i am even before this happened so they generously contributed to the cost of it.. thank God for family! and not forgetting, friends..

it really could have been worse.. thank God for the super valuable solid tangible lesson..

therefore, no more expensive outings for me.. don't tempt me if you're planning to have one.. have it in discrete.. with exceptions though.. that's all for now..till then !

Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.
1 Thessalonians 5:18

freeeeeeeeEEeeeeeeeeeeEE...!!

yes !! it's the time of the year again.. my precious semester break is finally here..!! exams are over.. i know i didn't do well but i'm glad it's over for now.. and all i hope for is to pass.. i don't know if i deserve to pass, it's all in God's hands.. and i believe He has truly helped me through.. i wasn't really scared this time though i felt most unprepared this time and that was what made me scared - for not feeling scared.. the peace that God gives us truly surpasses all understanding..

i feel really encouraged by the messages i received from my friends before exams.. how blessed i am to have them in my life.. made me want to do even better..

anyway, enough about exams.. it's time to enjoy myself to the fullest.. it's a study-free break !! wheeee..!! i read through the freedom post i posted in december and the things-to-do list was, wow! packed.... nothing much on my list yet this time.. wanna watch glee and you're beautiful.. the two popular shows people are talking about.. one thing for sure - make full use of this 2 weeks plus of break...

new semester's starting on july 5th but i'll still be going to college probably twice a week for some stuffs.. guess that's all for now.. till then !!

Crazy Love by Francis Chan

i've often heard people talking about books they read which are hard to be put down.. that when they read it, they'll just read on and on and on... eg. harry potter, twilight saga, shopaholic etc...

my response towards people who tell me that would always be, "oh, i'm not so into reading and i can easily put down any book cause my eyes will eventually get so tired of reading..so there is no book which i can't put down."

but i recently found this book online - Crazy Love by Francis Chan.. can't remember who posted the video link on facebook.. i watched a few chapters and i was really attracted to read the book so i bought it.. i thought i was only gonna read it after exams but when i started reading a few pages for a sneak preview, i read on and on and indeed, it's one book which is hard for me to put down..

not gonna review much about this book yet so if you wanna know more about it, check out this video and the website Crazylovebook.com (check out the chapter videos on the web too)

it's getting heavier....

it's the first of june.. it's the best of time, also the worst of time..

what have i got myself into?? what do i do now?? i don't know if this is what God wants me to do.. it was just too sudden.. in the midst of the exam tense which i'm going through.. if it is God's will for me, i'll definitely go for it.. i need the assurance..

my head feels so heavy right now..almost at the verge of explosion.. so tensed up.. not just because exams are near.. for the first time throughout my college life, i don't feel sick of studying yet.. you know why? coz i really haven't studied much and nobody would believe me for that.. been so lazy as well as busy with a lot of other stuffs..

and it's also one of the rare times which i actually logged in to blogspot before facebook.. there's just too many things going in my head that i need to pour it all out.. this is what my blog is for..

guess that's all for now. till then !

God, i need You...

drowsiness..

i've been feeling sleepy the whole day... the moment i woke up in the morning till now.. no matter how i much i've slept this afternoon and evening, i'm still feeling sleepy.. it's never enough..

oh gosh, what's wrong with me.. i made a vow to study hard this weekend but i failed.. i've got about 14 days left from now.. i've been too kind to myself, slacking and giving myself excuses not to study.. everyone thinks i can, everyone thinks i'm hardworking, everyone thinks i'm studious.. deep down, i know how much i've been slacking.. i guess my looks is really deceiving..

may is coming to an end and i can't believe june is soon here.. the month which consists of both the best (semester break) and the worst (exams) of the 1st half of the year..

enough of ranting and grumbling here.. that's why i seldom update nowadays..

oh drowsiness, i surrender !

p/s. youth concert, anyone???

a priceless gift...

i know mother's day is now over since it's past midnight.. but every day is mother's day so i guess i'm not too late to post this up..

i wanna thank God for blessing me with:

a kind mother
a loving mother
a generous mother
a caring mother
a great chef mother
a cool mother
a tech-savvy mother
a modern mother
a friendly mother
a fun mother

and it all sums up to one person - my mom..

and you know what? no word is enough to describe how special and extraordinary my mom is..

mother, is God's priceless gift to us and the salt of our lives who adds flavours into us..

i know you will be reading this.. so,

THANK YOU, MUMMY FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE =)

more of You and less of me...

it's been a while since i last updated this blog.. blame the blogging spirit of mine..hehe..

heard this song in the car on the way to kl last week and words really struck me.. more of Him and less of me is what i desire yet difficult to do.. it's a very beautiful and meaningful song by don moen.

More of You
And less of me
Lord i pray that there might be
More of You
And less of me

Like a grain of wheat
That falls to the earth
And dies to live anew
All my plans and earthly desires
i lay them down to follow You